2DAYS TO my Bday!!

I am so happy when i know there is at least one person reading this

two days to my bday

turning 16 this year

and this blog is turning 3 this year.

this was a birthday gift i given myself 3years back.

it has been dead for quite long.

but i will make it alive again.

WITHOUT regrets

i have no regrets joining the

Youth Olympics Open Ceremony performance!

i will regret if i rejected the offer back then.

Orh Yeah Orh Yeah Orh Yeah!

i have came this far,

i have enjoy this far,

i have reach the international stage!

The first saturday night without training

yesterday

was the first saturday night where i can stay at home

enjoying the tv shows.

For the past 6months,

i was having training for the performance

THE SYOG

Youth Olympics!!

i cant believe that i went so far

having training for almost 6months le

well, some may say that it was a waste of time,

no doubt, i also think like this back then

but when i really go for every training,

i saw the fun and laughter behind it

you wont knew it if you didnt join the training

is my Olevels year this year

and this training i had, was like a challenge to me

i have to manage my time carefully

but i nvr regretted joining this wonderful event

even if a night is used up every week

or two night is used up,

i still enjoy it.

Coz i have met great friends there.

AND I HAVE THE CHANCE OF STANDING ON INTERNATIONAL STAGE!

only left with 13days to SYOG!

it is the final lap of this 6months journey. ORH WOW!!!!

久违了

2010年真是一个精彩的一个年头

我做了许多我从来没有尝试的东西

• 我用了 Photoshop做了许多生日卡
• 我参加了国际的表演，SYOG!
• 我有了新的梦想

我改变了很多。自从参加 SYOG 之后，我更是学习了更多。

我学会了如何数拍子。

我学会了珍惜有限的时间。

中四了，时间过得很快。

距离O水准只有三个月，距离SYOG只有一个月。

好快，好快。

Is tiring…

i told him last night dat i hate him

i noe dats going to hurt him

but i not to find the way out of the hatred

is affecting me.

I need to ease the pain dat is on me,

but by doing so, i have to hurt him.

Have i done the correct choice?

i choose to hurt him, to save myself.

im being too selfish, isn’t it?

i dont like ppl to say:” i hate you”

but now im doing this to someone.

If i dont tell him, i cant ease the pain

is painful to hate someone, and is tiring controlling emotions every seeing him

i want to put it to a end

i dont want to hate anyone

we are all humans being right?

i believe in loving all ppl around

I choose to forgive every ppl

But this time i cant forgive him, and the hatred grow

is very scary how big the hatred is

I have learn to be true to myself

but what is the truth?

do i really mean dat i hate him or do i really respect him and think he left a great impact to me?

what is the truth?

is the 1st time im dealing with such big hatred.

I will let go and move on.

These are experiences that make us grow and become valuable parts of my life.

Everything has the 1st time, let this be the time i learn how to handle my hatred.

if i was given a chance to choose

i would rather not to meet him

is causing me to much pain

but also dis is also a lesson i learn lots of things

i learn to be true to myself,

i learn to be brave enough to face the hatred

i learn to express myself

i learn to be honest, not lying to myself

i learn is hurtful to the other

i did learn alot last night, is also a valuable night i have.

人间，最美的是宽恕。

恨是一种可怕的感觉。它随时随地都有可能把你的理智吞食掉。当你尝试把它忘却时，它的力量反而更强烈。所以也只能无奈地望着慢慢把你的理智吃掉。

放下恨意，真的需要很大的勇气。

我自认没有。

is so funny…

when back reading my post i written in my blog

last year

how i like maths so much

jux like im gone crazy over it

and i said dat math is like a playmate to me

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

dis all seems like a history

it seems so far away

is a dream

and i have been awake from  the dream

i felt disgusted!!

it is the same feeling i had last year

when i was under the stress of the NJRC

i wanted to give up

i was sick and tired of programming when failure hit me

many many times

i was very tiring to see ur robot fail each time

we stay back many times

correcting the programme hoping it will work

but always fail

~~~ ~~~ ~~~  ~~~ ~~~

is it the same as the situation now

under the time stress

i seriously dont want to continue anymore

i cant get my passion back towards maths

i wanted to say:” I GIVE UP!!! “

i dont want to force myself to like the subject again

i really feel disgusted

even now, i feel disgusted when i  saw the word

MATHEMATICS

no matter how many times i told myself:

• is ok. cool down, dont think too much
• hang on
• dont give up
• u still have the passion dont u?

negative answers always appear in front of me

i must be crazy when i say i like maths
( or i must be crazy now)

帮我点燃对数学的热忱

刚刚看了我的梦想书

第一页

我写道：

我心中有一把火，那是我的热忱，它照亮了我漆黑的路。它将会如奥运圣火一样，将有我开始一直转下去。

那时不久前的事，

现在这把火熄了，

我又如何传下去?

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

我不懂，

不懂为什么会发生这样的事。。。

为何要继续坚持过？

我真的真的感到厌恶了

摆在我面前的amath 越做越觉得讨厌

我不逼自己做我不喜欢的事

可是我又必须做下去

很痛苦，真的很痛苦

我已经找不回昔日对它的感觉了

在时间的催促下

我无法安心地做好每一题

现在数学对我是一种折磨

把我的生命慢慢吞噬掉

痛苦的折磨啊！！！

最大的梦想

最大的梦想：

忘了一切世俗烦恼

躺在沙滩上

享受被风吹过

我即将实现这个梦想了！